My Portion

“The Lord is my portion,” says my soul. “Therefore I have hope in Him! The Lord is good to those that wait for Him, to the soul who seeks Him. It is good that one should hope and wait quietly for the salvation of the Lord. – Lamentations 3:24-26

I’m feelin’ it. The weight of the world’s groans. Our souls yearn for true, lovely, holy and we are swallowed up in busy, ugly, fake. Being the parent of a middle schooler, the curtain has been drawn back on just how yucky humans can be to each other. There’s a tug-o-war not for win or lose but for right and wrong. A game used to be something you played together at the dinner table every Tuesday with family faces. Now the players are virtual, often strangers, and instead of innocent, competitive banter and laughter echoing through our homes, there’s amped up shouting and name calling, and the counting of kills. I’m sick.

Kids I know hustle for their worth on social media, as if Instagram and SnapChat are a mirror reflection of who they really are…and, filters. They beg the magic mirror to tell them they are the fairest of them all; it’s as wicked as Snow White’s queen. Deep breath, refresh, how many likes do I have….how many hearts…oh, a snarky vomit of comments about how I look, what I should do for them or to them, whether I even have the right to post my face on the space at all. Gross!

When the darkness reigns and my best efforts to parent fail miserably, I shrink into sadness like a spring flower curling inward when the sun retreats and showers fall. Any yet, I know that the Lord desires us to have joy, peace, and hope in Him, even when it’s dark all around us. Even when we can’t keep bad things from happening.   

“These things I have spoken to you, that in Me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation; but be of good cheer, I have overcome the world.” John 16:33

He has overcome the darkness of this world, so I CAN lift up my countenance, unfurling my petals and turning my face toward the Son once again. I CAN fix my mind on my Eternal Hope. I CAN wait quietly for Him. The Lord is my portion. Clinging to this reminder today.


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